Day 20

I want to go back to our honeymoon spot. Punta Cana, Dominican Republic! It was 7 days of pure wedded bliss! It took 14 hours, 2 planes and bumpy 3 hour hot bus ride to get there but it was so worth it. If only I could get over my fear of flying to go one more time!

I LOVE riding horses. Horses that I know and are comfortable with. These horses were CRAZY and I was scared out of my mind. They kept trying to race each other and bumping into each other and getting our legs trapped between them. It hurt and was NOT fun! This pic was taken before we ventured out for a ride and they turned crazy. They look all tamed and lazy in this pic..........they weren't!

The pool was amazing. It wrapped around the whole resort. You could basically get in from anywhere you were.

The beaches were so pretty. We had everything we needed on our resort alone. 12 different restaurants, snorkeling, body surfing, massages on the beach, a dance club, shopping stores, spa place and many more. The nice thing about our resort was, we could go to the beach and lay out and if we wanted to go eat or swim at the pool we could just leave our stuff there and no one would mess with it. They had like 2 staff for each couple there. We could have stayed at the resort for 7 days and never got bored but we ventured out one day for an excursion. We took a 30 minute SPEED boat ride to a small island. They cooked fresh lobster and shrimp out on the beach while every one layed out or snorkeled. It was sooo good! On the way back to the resort we were supposed to stop at a market place and shop but everyone on the excursion voted to go back to the resort. Everyone was exhausted and stuffed!

Day 18

Whoa, this blog is getting personal. My biggest insecurity is my bone disease. Although, I think the older I get the farthest from my mind it goes. I don't really like talking about it and when I do it usually brings tears to my eyes......not sure why and I break out in a sweat......Is that anxiety?

I was always aware of my legs when I was younger. They never touched and always had a bow. In most pictures I have of myself when I was younger I am standing with my feet turned in and on there side. I guess I did that on purpose so when I saw me legs bowed out I could just blame it on the way I was standing. When I was diagnosed with this disease Internet wasn't around so I couldn't google it and Dr.'s had barely heard about it. I actually googled it for the first time after I found out I was pregnant just to try to find more info on it. There was A LOT of info! It is actually way more common now. I know a couple of people who I think have this disease too. Sometimes it's hard to diagnose and most of the time it goes undiagnosed. I even found a FB page for a support group! I was way more insecure about my legs when I was younger. It seems the older I have gotten and the more prayer's prayed about it, the more I have "outgrown" it. If that is even possible! Dr.'s always told me I wouldn't be taller than 4'6. I am 5'4. They always told me I would need total hip and knee replacement by the time I was 30. I am 28, will be 29 in April. They told me I would have arthritis. I don't. They told me the rod in my femur would not fix the problem. Haven't had a problem since. They told me I would have problems carrying a child because of the extra weight. I didn't.

I have 5 long scars on my leg, a rod in my femur and 3 screws to remind me of what could have been. I am so thankful for unexplained miracles!

Day 17

This little guy has made a huge impact on my life recently

A pretty good impact though! Everyone says how much life changes after you have a kid and how much your relationship with your other half will change after children. Our life hasn't changed that much except it takes longer for us to get out of the house and be on time for an appointment:) It's not that life has changed much but a feeling I have has changed. There is more emotion, a deeper love, and a deeper connection with Cody. We enjoy when Jones takes naps because it gives us time together. Then when he sleeps so long we miss him and want to go wake him up. It seems like every night on the news there is a story about losing a child or some crack head being abusive to their baby. It has always pissed me off and I could never imagine how someone could do that, but now actually having a baby and thinking that makes me an emotional wreck.

Everyone always talks about how as soon as you see your baby you just have this flood of emotions and you think how you could love someone SO much. I didn't have that feeling then. I was in shock the first week I think. I couldn't wrap my head around what actually happened. I could hardly remember little details and think "did that really happen?' How can your body do that and survive. I had that flood of emotions probably a week and a half after he was born. I was rocking him to sleep one day for his nap and the water works came a flowing. It was like hyperventilating tears of joy, love and thinking if anybody tried to hurt my little man, momma goose would come pounding on your head! I was still in shock that he was actually here and I still couldn't believe it. I didn't want to put him down, I just kept kissing him and smelling him and just hugging him up. Apparently he didn't like it and woke up squirming and fussy and couldn't get out of my death grip fast enough. I layed him down and he went back to sleep. Every time I look at him I feel a flood of emotions, butterflies in my stomach and I get weak at the knees and now I can't ever remember life without him!

2 Months!.....and Day 19

A picture and a letter

Jones,

We cannot believe you are already 2 months! Time needs to slow down because you are growing and changing way to fast! I was watching you sleep the other day and you didn't even look like a newborn to me anymore. I just knew you were about to wake up and start talking to me because you looked so much older.

You weigh 13.4 pounds

You are 23 inches long

Not sure exactly what size you wear, in the above pic you have on newborn pants and a 6 month sweatshirt. Baby sizes are weird! and not accurate!

You are still sleeping through the night and after 2 months you still have not kept me up at night!

You still eat every 2-3 hours during the day and 6-10 hours at night

You finally stopped cluster feeding at night

You are taking your pacifier easier. Usually out in public when you get fussy

You have learned to love being swaddled! Every time we put you on your back you have a minor freak out and think you are falling. Swaddling has saved us both!

You still love to be rocked

You go to bed easier for daddy than you do me

You still sleep in your bassinet and it will be a sad day when we move you to your crib

When your fussy you love when momma wears you in your sling

You had your first date night with momma and daddy a few weeks ago and you did awesome!

You love taking baths in the big tub with us

I still haven't found a bottle you will take gracefully:( I know, I know...why would you take the bottle when momma has the goods!

You are the happiest baby in the mornings!

We are still waiting for you to laugh out loud! We get lots of giggles though

I pray you will get over your reflux soon