Blessed and Broken......

and so on..........

Every year, when I write my first blog, I think about past years and I always get curious about the current year, and wonder what it will bring us.  I always think about  how blessed we have been year after year and I always wonder whether or not this will be the year the ball drops on us.  I am pretty sure the last time that ball dropped was in 2009....so I guess we were due for another......

We have been crazy busy this year.  We have either been out of town or had hunters down every weekend.  Yesterday we were able to make it to church and he was definitly preaching to me, it was all about why God lets us suffer.

I have looked back on all the times I have suffered, there have been too many to count, but I have always stayed faithful.  Never really questioned "the why" and had faith that a blessing would show its pretty face soon after my suffering.  In a perfect world "the why" would be lovely, but I have faith that things, the good and the bad, all work together to form the "perfect plan" for my life.

I will always believe that.

Cody and I started the new year with exciting news.  We were going to bring another little one into the world.  I would be 13 weeks today, but the Lord had other plans.  We lost our baby two weeks ago. 

I wish I knew why....

I want to be angry....

but I choose not to be.....

I will continue to be faithful.....

I will continue to be thankful.

All the way my Savior leads me
Who have I to ask beside
How could I doubt His tender mercy
Who through life has been my guide

All the way my Savior leads me
Cheers each winding path I tread
Gives me grace for every trial
Feeds me with the living Bread

You lead me and keep me from falling
You carry me close to Your heart
And surely Your goodness and mercy will follow me

O, the fullness of His love
O, the sureness of His promise
In the triumph of His blood
And when my spirit clothes immortal
Wings its flight to realms of day
This song through enldess ages
Jesus led me all the way
Jesus led me all the way

New Year!

I just got my blog book in the mail from 2013 and I have been reading it like I have never read it before....ha!  I look forward to those things every year!  I wrote more last year than I have in years past.

When we headed out of town for Texas, for Christmas, we dropped off the ranch truck to get worked on.  On our way home, I dropped Cody off to get it, and he stayed in town for a bit to get some errands done.  When we leave town, Cody always locks our jacked up gate.  He gave me the key to the gate and the house before I dropped him off....but when we got home, I could NOT get that stupid gate unlocked.  I had planned to get all of our stuff unloaded, a couple loads of laundry done, relax on the couch and take a bath all before Cody got home........

Well we crawled under the fence and Jones got to finally ride his tractor outside for the first time, since it was such a nice day.  Cody got home.....and unlocked the gate, first try......

We had a lot to do when we got back from Texas, but we ended up helping Cody a couple of days.

Ok, maybe we just played a little while we watched daddy work?

We had to get ready for more hunts.  Our January is BOOKED!

We went hunting with Cody one day to get our freezer stocked.  Jones was in love!

We have been so busy with hunters lately that I promised I would take Jones to the movies one night.  After I promised him the movie I looked at what was showing and the only kid friendly thing showing was Frozen.  We had already seen it, but it wasn't hard to talk him into seeing it again.  I think it was better the second time!

Our year has already started out busy and the same as every other year we have been here...but I'm so looking forward to what 2014 has in store for us!!!!

Christmas Mini Session

I came across a fantastic deal on fb that a local photographer was doing for one day!  I jump on it and thought it would be a cheap way to get some family pics done:)  Cody ended up having a last minute hunt booked so it turned into a mini session for Jones and I got one pic with him.  I think they turned out adorable!

He was a little ham.  We were her last clients for the day and she said Jones was the only one that was feeling the camera, ha!

He loved the fake snow!  He kept wanting to do it over and over and over....and she let him:)

Here is a sneak peek at his birthday pics I took.....a few days late:/

Thanksgiving in OK!

 We were so excited it didn't work out for us to drive in for Thanksgiving, plus get to see family!  WIN/WIN!  Jones got horribly sick the day before my parents were to come in.  I thought it was RSV and so did the Dr but the test came back negative..............He ran 103 + temp for the first 3 days, and he sounded like he smoked a pack a day, and he was wheezing and just plain pitiful.  IT was so sad, and I had never seen him that sick before.

We ended up having a mini party for him.  He puckered up long enough to blow out the candles, make out with a piece of cake and sit on his new toy!  Then he crashed:(

He loved his new John Deer.  It has just been to cold to take it outside thought:(  It goes SOOOO fast and he is going to break something in the house soon!

He was so excited about his big boy bed, because it meant his Uncle Josh would be sleeping with him.  Since he was SO sick he stayed in our room, so we could keep an eye on him.  He kept coughing and getting choked and just throwing up:/

We had plenty of folks here to love on our boy and to try to make him feel just a little bit better......

After 13 days of blahness, he is back to his regular self!